Dear Universe, I feel defeated at times, like now.
Why is it that the very hours when I feel most comfortable in my solitude and have no need for a lover of any sort you present me with one? Yes, she is quite beautiful, intelligent and magnificent, brave and kind hearted. I know you put her in my life for a reason, she is special to you so I will treat her with every ounce of respect I have, with every bit of care I can give and with all the love I possess. I will allow myself to do this, again. I cannot compare her to anyone I've ever shared my heart with nor would I want to but I must admit she possesses some things that many people do not have. This is why she is special to you. This is why she is special to me. Yet, she doesn't allow herself to breath, she doesn't allow herself and her love to flow from her naturally. She questions me; my actions and words do not seem to help so what am I suppose to do? I feel defeated when I try so hard, when I allow myself to let go and love completely and truthfully yet they can't. But I am patient.
Why is this so hard? What is holding her back?
I'm doing everything I can to earn a trust thats never been broken.
Universe, she tells me my words and actions are telling her different things
Universe, I tell her I'd do anything to be by her side
Universe, she tells me she wants to believe me
Universe, I tell her continuously how I feel
Universe, she's not fucking getting it, she's doubting me
Universe, I tell her I love her for the first time and not to question that
Universe, all she says is Okay.
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